Lesson learned: Selfishness hurts great souls

I pray that when you read this letter, someday…you will find in your heart to forgive me and see that I don’t have any intention whatsoever to deliberately hurt you.


I’ve been praying for days now that the Lord will guide me to the path that He wanted me to lead…and after complete surrender and heeding to His voice that speaks to my being I came to realize that my heart belongs to only one man and that is the boyfriend I told you I just broken up with on the early part of our correspondence.


When I said I am not committed to someone when you asked me it was the truth, although he never stopped winning me back but I asked him to give me more time to really know what I wanted. I have to be honest with you that recently we both decided to start again, stronger this time.


I can see and can feel that you are a great person as you are… and if I am not in love with someone now I would very well consider you to be my man. But I would be selfish if I would lead you to something that I know will not be good for both of us. I won’t blame you if you will be angry with me but I will continuously pray to our God that someday you will look at me again as a good person.


Thank you for the love that you offer…I am much honored. But I respectfully would refuse it because now the truth that my heart knows is that I love someone else. I am very sorry…please someday forgive me.

to my DEE

knowing a man like you doesn't make the world go round but it makes the ride worth it...our story is a struggle and victory of two people unlucky in love who desire and believe that someday the other half of the lost twin soul will be found and become one once again...

I've been weak as you were weak despite our strong and unbowed nature as individuals...we both need to face and accept this fact in us. But, in you i found the right reasons to continuously beg for God's grace to become the person that He wanted me to become as the other half of that "whole being" He wanted us to be..i believe in that...my whole being screams this as TRUTH...

Trust is always my issue...but i came to realized that i should trust that the God who led us to each other will also be the same God who will keep us together if He so desires.

I love you and that is the fact that i know of now...I will fully trust God's unfailing love for us to surprise me every step of the way and will continue to pray that every new day is a day spent with you...

I know now that Loving is not just a feeling...Love is action. Like any other great things in this world, nothing that is worth doing can be accomplished solely through feelings...it takes action. It won't be easy I know that for a fact...but with God blessing us...everything is achievable.